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Its been years that I have written; or may be written but did not want to share it here...
yea that is exactly what happened..
Past days have been troublesome to put it lightly; I don't want to say much about it here...
But I do want to say how I feel today...
What past has taught me
What shadows now follow me
What I carry with myself
It might or might not matter to everyone else..
But for me it an experience I pray no one has to encounter
and though its the cruel reality of the very world around us all
I pray that who so ever encounters it shall have the strength to bear it and move on in life...
To all my fellow survivors "Have a little faith, Hold on a little longer. Lord is watching over us all.. Don't give in to sorrows. You think its beyond your limit then happiness is just beyond the corner. He is simply testing our Faith.. Pray and stay True.. He is your Witness; He is your Partner.. "

What do you Name when you try and write about your life experiences after dying and then being alive again... . The Rising... The Re-awakening... ??? The Phoenix ...

I am not even sure I want to title this post...
How do I describe this feeling of writing again.. of wanting to write again.. of have small pieces of my soul coming back again...
Being Lost but Finding my Way back to Self
The belief that Not is All is lost
there is still hope and there is still a way forward..
A friend of mine said now that you have finally hit the ground there is only one way and that 'UP'
That's a good advice.. When things look bleak and blurry; these are the kind of words one would wanna listen...

You and I..!!!

When i thought i was lost,

you came along,

and showed me the way.

When i thought i was moving on,

you smiled,

and bade me away.

When i though i was sad,

you wiped my tears away. 

you held me

when i could not look at myself, 

you held me

when i felt betrayed. 

you stood by me when i failed

and said that hope is on the way. 

you warmth made the hurt go away,

your kindness made the pain wash away. 

you accepted me with my flaws,

never cajoled me to change. 

but now i wish to overcome my weekness,

so that i can on my own

find my way to you... 

- Pooja A Shrivastava 

Stranger on the Way

Was on my way, walking away,
when i saw a freckled known face
I wanted to turn away,no desire to say "Hey"
I looked down, too hesitant,
too awkward too shocked now to step away.
Cornered on my way, with the face inches away,
Forcing me to meet its eyes.

The eyes showed me no mercy,
they showed me no cruelty
they showed me no judgement
they showed me no pain

The eyes reflected to truth,
they reflected the fact,
they reflected the acts
they reflected the tracks.

The freckled face so familiar,
spoke to me now,
"Running away is never the answer
because there is no real running away.
Even if you outrun others,
you can never out run your SELF."
"I am you, or what was YOU,
I am still beneath all the layers,
I am the eyes of your conscience,
seeing you the way no one else ever can"

"Accept the past, Accept the actions,
Accept the remorse of the deeds done on the way.
Learn from your mistakes, don't forget them
the regret  won't let you sleep
and remorse won't let you breathe."

"Make your wrongs right,
Undo the actions did in anger,
Redo the work with pure love,
You may then be allowed to sleep
and the dreams will then take over."

-Pooja A Shrivastava

TIME SHALL TELL!

Time shall tell
about the unplanned days
Time shall tell
about the sleepless nights
Time shall tell
about the mourning
Time shall tell
about the pains of the wait
Time shall tell
about the depths of heart
Time shall tell
about the heights of fall
Time shall tell
about the valleys within.
Time shall tell
about the scared spirit.

Time shall tell
about the unknown calling
Time shall tell
about the healed one's journey
Time shall tell
about the Rising of an Unified Soul
Time shall tell
about this Soul's journey ahead
Towards its Home.

-- Pooja A Shrivastava

कुछ पुरानी यादेँ.

कुछ पुराने पन्ने किताब के
आज युही जो पलट गए
ताज़ी हुई यादों के बहाने जो मिल गए
छिपकर बैठे आंसू को
किनारे यों मिल गए ।
आज बीत गया यादों के संघ
अब कल की ओर नहीं भी कोई शर्म
बीत गए है वोह पल जिनसे था हमें डर।
कुछ पुराने पन्ने किताब के
आज युही जो गए पलट,
ताज़ी हुई यादे आज
मुस्कुरदिये अब फिर हम।

- पूजा श्रीवास्तव

HARRY POTTER.. FAREWELL

"Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home."- J.K. Rowling ...

This is not a farewell.. i shall never forget harry, dumbledore, ron hermione, sirius, luna, ginny, dobby, fred george, snape, prof.mcgonnagle, hagrid, neville, mrs.norris, mr. filch, abberforth and so many more.. even Tom riddle..

Jo you actually made me explore myself.. In the magical world of harry potter i found out abt the true magic inside us all...

thank you for everything.

Feeling Blissful Everyday!!

Insight: We all are a part of one Universal Energy called God. For me I am one of the many who call Him "Shree Ram."
He sent us here, away from Him (only physically though) to learn from the mistakes, to spread His message and to witness His many miracles. He never bade us farewell but it was us who beneath all the masks and materialism forgot our true self.
I write this because I like many have been awakened, touched by reality and realized that "He loves me and accepts me even after all my mistakes." He by blessing me has given me yet another chance to make a little difference in His beautiful creation called World.
So I am writing what He has inspired in me- The hand may be mine but the ideas and words, the Truth in the sentences is all HIM.
He has blessed me again and again and I'm not the only one who can give a proof the only of that- because I'm just one of the many who has been touched.
Ramji (for me, for He has so many names) sent me here to do some tasks and learn from them; may be He punished me and now I'm here facing detention. Though I was not happy about the punishment, He knew I deserved it and it was a necessity. The separation was more painful for Him than it was to me,
But today when I remember the past and look at the present I feel nothing but purest form of gratitude and love and devotion. I feel Him close to me in each and every moment like I could reach up to Him in one moment, like I could embrace Him in one hug. I feel Him watching over me and I feel His love pouring out for me.
And in the end (as I wish it would end) I feel the separation is gonna end soon. He is as anxious for me to return Home as I am.
But I still have some few more miles to go- these miles are paths and tasks of my life. Some responsibilities that are on me to fulfill, some messages to spread, many lessons to learn, many deeds to perform. Many to love and many more to be made aware of 'Him'.

- POOJA A. SHRIVASTAVA
30th April 2011