Break Point Once Again- A Make Point Once Again!!

I shall smile for the world,
but who shall I turn to when I cry;
Forget the sorrows and move on they say,
but what if they are ones throwing stones on my way;
Am I to rely on no one in my life?
No one to come share my pain and say "baby its all right"..
All I have are the ones who have stood by me
But now have just distrust to spare...
No I wont take pity,
I wont take accusation,
I have dignity
I have my honor by my side..
I shall not lose myself again,
Not to you nor others as well...
I am putting myself back again
And shall do that again and again-
B'coz Life puts you through tests
But I promised myself
That I shall Rise Again and Again!!!

Depression a Reality., but Suicide is not the Answer!!

The feeling of letting go.. feeling of never having to deal with it anymore.. the feeling of being lost in the pain so that we cant feel the pain anymore... Yes many of us have been there or we know someone who has been.. or we might as well have lost someone due to this...
I speak from my experience as I have been on that edge when I wanted to let go.. to lose, to never face.. to give up... 
Depression- our emotions that turn us upside down.. inside out.. delude our perceptions, our understanding our belief system.. Depression is a reality..
For some it might work when you say "Accept it bro and Move on in life " not for all.... what if the situation they are in and the perception they carry right now does not allow them to move on...
Let me make it clear.. I DO NOT APPROVE OF SUICIDE AS AN OPTION.. LIKE I SAID I HAVE BEEN ON THAT EDGE..
But It is still a reality.. I speak to people who feel they are on the edge and wanna let go -
"DON'T" coz there is always a way to out.. We are not seeing in the right direction.. Don't close down when you feel this low; share your thoughts; doubts and questions with someone you truly trust.. some one has always stood by you!! or there are always professionals you can go to. Seeking help is not a sign of weakness. Not Accepting it- IS!!!
All this debates over if an actress committing suicide... it is sad... A family Lost someone they loved, they cared about..
In a suicide its not just 'A life' that is lost; the family dies with it.. the mourning never stops...
It was the thought of my parents, brother and sister and my friends that made me step back from the edge...
Think of the ones you love before taking any extreme step... You are a loved, blessed soul.. God is looking after you.. So He has put you through Life tests.. but he has equipped us with lessons and strengths as well...
Have faith in yourself.. God loves you..

The Battlefield

Behind the walls of the shield,
I fight the war beneath,
I am the army, I am the force,
I am the enemy, I am the fort.
Swords that slay me,
arms that cover me,
the blood spilled.
All are mine and all is me
I am the slayer,
I am the slayed..
I am the warrior, I am the menace..
This my battle,
This life is my battlefield; The war is my life story,
The ending is my Salvation..


Pooja Shrivastava